You are the sparkle of my eyes,

You are the joy in my smiles,

With you my happiness lies,

With you I'd travel for miles.

My day begins with your voice,

And fills it with your charm,

Your wish makes my heart rejoice,

And it brims with your love warm.

On every starry night,

Under every moonlit sky,

I'll miss you with all my might,

And feel the void you'll leave by.

Meet me once as your beloved,

And hold me as if you'd never let go.

Look at me and lock me in your eyes,

And kiss me as if your lips froze on mine.

For one last time be mine.

For one last time BE MINE.

Save all your kisses for ME

I really need to see you more
So I came knocking at your door.
My heart it leaps when I walked in
You brushed your hand against my skin.
I looked at you with wanting eyes
My love for you shows no disguise.
I really need to kiss your lips
Their tenderness so soft, so sweet
And to feel the fire within.

Please kiss me fast and kiss me slow
And wrap your arms around me.
I feel the passion burning up
Don't stop I need you so.
I crave your kisses, I crave your touch
Please let me show you just how much.
The kisses grow more urgent now
As I undo your shirt.

It falls gently to the floor
And this is where I want you more.
I place sweet kisses on your chest
And then upon your lips.
And move my hands, caressing you
With my fingertips.
And now my body's burning up
As you kiss me passionately.
My heart beats faster than before
As you touch me more and more.

As you undress me really slow
I really want you - let me show.
You touch my skin, it feels so good
Just as I imagined it would.
Shivers run up and down my spine
I only wish that you were mine.
I look at you and hold you close
Our clothes undone and then who knows.

If only all this would come true,
Maybe for an hour or two.
All I can do is wish and hope
But I'm only dreaming it - of course!

When you came into my world......

Honey what do you think I should wear? This peach mangal giri or mauve with bottle green border gadwal or any of my kanjiwaram? How about wearing a Daccai since we are going to the Durga puja? Sweety please dekho na plz....
Mai dekh to raha hun well you do look sexy in your this come hither top with your knockers pointing so temptingly at me....come here janu...
She puts away all the saris on the cushioned chair and crawls across the bed on her knees to bend towards her lover giving him a good peek of the two said knockers which he had unashamedly so admired My dearest plzplz...it's getting late baby I need to have bath and dress so help me with the dress I need to wear" leans over a plants a kiss on his lips and he cups her and never lets her off that kiss taking time with her rosebud lips and his pleasure She is now all swooning breathless and finally released gets up giddily and he tells her yes the mauve looks good and he would wear his mauve sherwani to go with her attire. So she puts away the rest of the saris and gets out her mauve inner wear and lover boy has a smile on his lips imagining how she would look in them.
Baby you better hurry and get dressed too You take forever to decide what shoes which watch to wear so hurry baby...
He is still flicking the times mag and nodding
well the water is hot ad the bath tub has rose petals but today she had no patience or time to admire the aroma candles oils or the rose petals She needs to get dressed in a hurry for they were going to the other side of the town for a dinner. Yet she took time with the loofah and her shower jells and did not forget to apply moisturizer all over especially the slit of her but which would get chaffed and rough She wore her mauve coloured lace bra and pants ignored the weighing scale took one long look at herself in the mirror warped the towel around her hair and stepped into the bedroom with its french windows overlooking the sea. The sea did look a wee bit rough well before she sat at he dressing table she had to galvanize her lover boy With this in mind she went on to the bed but janaab was playing dead with the cover drawn well over his head She could not guess what was happening inside but she had to get him out of the bed....
Jaanu plz uto wake up baby....please....jaanu don't play dead....WHAT?... you need a kiss on the forehead then now on your eyes...mmmm...ok done...what your cheeks now ok...wake up...WHAT????.... on your lips....... no not lips I don't trust you no you will get all naughty and we will get horribly la..oh .....oh.....ok wtf.....here kiss me take me all you want.....yes I mean it......You know I can't ever say NO to you you know that don't you? Oh why did I ever love you so much.....honey this is the fresh pair of inner wear don't joota mat kar babb dante samalkar Oooo it tickles your mouth trying to unfasten the hook..... it is taking forever....I have goose bumps all over .....Ooo tickles......what are you doing to my back??? Ooooo...don't give me any marks baby last time remember how my didi made fun of it in front of all.......hehe.......I can't stop laughing Oh plz hurry I can't stand the tingling and....oh love let me help you baby ok you don't want to me ok..
baby come into my arms right now....oh...stop it stop kissing.....pulling him by the hair on his head she pulls him level to her lips feeling at the same time his hardness. Kiss me baby make me all yours Tell me you belong to me and your lips are hence forth mine....
She kissed him all over his face and of curse paused longest on his lips drinking in all that he offered! Now she was drunk and there was no turning back! He the connoisseur and she his rose How many times he ventured to open all her petals and each time it felt so exciting so new so varied! Boy he did never get tired of her......he felt her moaning felt her tremble at his lips and he took his time with his sweet torment Her eyes were half closed and lips parted her face flushed He was overcome with her innocent joy abandoned surrender overcome he promptly reclaimed her lips
By now she was past caring and she found she was responding to his every touch and he was pleased with her wetness It was just a matter of natural progression when they moved like the rough waves of the ocean at high tide incessantly never tiring......until the tide receded....to it's calmness...until there was only heightened awareness and gasping breaths......until their universe came to a standstill....now he felt his world at last in his arms right where it belonged....yes right there where he could feel smell kiss such silken skin...all of his...forever and a life time......
   

When U hurt I hurt more baby...

Dearest darling mine,
How do I go on from here baby. It hurts me to see you suffer in this manner. Your false bravado your 'not care so what' attitude especially when you are hurting dying inside every minute is killing me baby. I would do anything to spare you this agony but I don't know how. If I say ILU you don't believe it or you say I am not telling you the truth or I should prove it. You say you are the only one with feelings and you love me more. You say extremely cruel things like my gifts are no good my love is no good I don't respect you etc I could turn back and ask you what have you done to show me your love You also give me words on fb that is it. Now we can keep arguing hurting each other about such petty things but I have given up. I decided I will not say things to hurt you however much you provoke me to. But when you say that each of us have moved on and have different loves in our lives I don't know whether I should cry and bash my head. Let me put this to rest once and for all. I have know you for 31 long years and even before that in Allahabad if I have to believe my dreams! And after admiring you from a distant for 30 yrs I have been in love with you for the past one year as you too shared your heart with me. Now it will take me another 30 yrs for me to get over you if that is ever possible Much before that I will be dead and gone that is if this grief doesn't consume me earlier! And aap ki abhi bhi Ganga ki tarah hai chahe apnalo ya tukrado. You are constantly advising me as to how I should go on in my life worrying yourself sick about little things. You say I have moved on next post you say you want be that couple that everyone would envy for having such perfect love! You say you want to spend time with me talking stupids things listening to music etc How can you baby for that you need to decide and have the courage to stay with me I mean live together as a couple. I don't know what you are waiting for considering we both have so little time on this earth and for each other! If you think of your position status family reputation etc then I feel I come in your list of priority after all these. When you burn yourself out, when the public has taken out their pound of flesh and when you have nothing more to give you want to come to me! Is that fair? I can understand you dancing with contestants and flirting a wee bit but why do you go down on your knees to artists sing song offer flowers etc I think for your stature you should do that only with senior artists like Mads Sri Neetu etc coz when you do this too often it loses its allure and charm. You may be excessively polite graceful show concern ask about their work and even dance etc but beyond that I feel you are cheapening yourself.  Tomorrow people will say you kneel in front of anyone and I for one don't want to hear that. Also when you throw back your head and laugh the upper teeth on either side shows yellow on close up You have put veneer on the 4 front teeth only but you need cap or veneer others which u display when u smile so that they all appear the same color Use B1 or B2 shade which is natural. Your dress of deep maroon was looking good and today's wasn't bad either! Keep up the tempo God bless and here is to wishing that may the TRP remain the highest! Love you baby I am always waiting for you at the exact same place you left me when you walked away and now you can walk back into my heart any time As for as loving you less or more that is your paranoia love is either exists or it doesn't and like everything it changes over time it matures and ages like wine and that is not a bad thing at all as it gets intoxicating! ha ha

I love you without knowing how

"I do not love you as if you were salt-rose, or topaz,
or the arrow of carnations the fire shoots off.
I love you as certain dark things are to be loved,
in secret, between the shadow and the soul.

I love you as the plant that never blooms
but carries in itself the light of hidden flowers;
thanks to your love a certain solid fragrance,
risen from the earth, lives darkly in my body.

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where.
I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride;
so I love you because I know no other way

than this: where I does not exist, nor you,
so close that your hand on my chest is my hand,
so close that your eyes close as I fall asleep."

Pablo Neruda

Why do I need this pain.....

Why do i need the pain...need to sting,burn,ache? 
Is it the fact that it's such a relief afterwards...the chance of feeling Him hold me till it's better? 

Why does my heart race...every time i get a simple message from Him? 
Is it the anticipation,the desire,the joy? 

Why is it so hard to do anything...without thinking of Him, 
wondering what it would be like if He was here, 
If He could see me...touch me? 

Why is it so easy to love Him so much...more than words could ever say...more than i could ever show? 
Why didn't i meet Him years ago...all this time without Him? 
All these feelings,emotions,needs...waiting...for Him to arrive? 

i ask myself these questions,but i know the answers... 
Our bond is so strong...the waiting is over...our time is now... 
And forever more...

My master is my world....

my Master is my world...the center of my universe. He's my every waking moment...my every dream each night. He's the reason for being...the reason my heart beats. He's my friend,my mentor,my lover,my inspiration. He's the one i live to serve...the only one who can have me fully, Without permission,without compromise. He's the one i love completely,devotedly,unashamedly. my Master is my life...my life is my Master's.

The never ending wait....

Waiting for the time...a little time to spend alone with Him, Waiting for a sign...the smallest sign of His approval. Waiting for the pain...the sweetest pain i ever felt, Waiting for the sweet release...before Him knelt. Waiting for those words...the words that mean so much, Waiting for that feeling...the feeling of His touch. Waiting as He takes His pleasure...His body taught, Waiting for my heart to beat...my breath is caught. Waiting to hear Him say,He's proud to own me...make me shine, Waiting for my Master...to hear Him say,"you're Mine".

His words make me

His words beguile me,wash over me, 
like a sweet warm shower in summer, 
seeping into my very heart and soul. 

His words are His tool,and my obsession, 
i need to hear His praise,i hate to hear His displeasure. 

His words raise me up,so high i'm soaring, 
yet have the power to bring me crashing back down to earth. 

His words keep me warm through long,dark nights, 
yet can still chill me to the bone. 

His words make me feel safe,yet vulnerable, 
ashamed,yet proud,make me cry, 
but always make me smile afterwards. 

His words are caring,sensitive,loving, 
and above all else,His words are true. 

His words make me feel owned,loved,desired, 
His words comfort me when i doubt myself, 
When all else fails...all i need are... 

               His words

You show me the stars......

You gently stroke the back of Your 
 large hand down my cheek, 
tilting my chin up to look 
into Your eyes... 
and i *see* the stars. 

You run Your hand up, 
across the hot,soft flesh 
of my inner thigh, 
touching my wetness, 
and i *feel* the stars. 

You hurt me,make me suffer, 
make me cry out Your name... 
and i *need* the stars. 

You kiss me,whispering 
"good girl,you're Mine"... 
and i *hear* the stars. 

You tell me i'm forgiven, 
and hold me till the tears subside... 
and i return to You,the stars. 

Sometimes....I am overwhelmed...

Sometimes,when I lay,not quite conscious,not quite asleep, 
I feel Him... 
He's the gentle breeze on my bare flesh,and it excites me to feel Him...there 

Sometimes,I close my eyes,and I can still smell Him... 
the unmistakable scent of Him, 
and a tear wells in my closed eyes 

Sometimes,I see His face,hear His growl,feel His hands on my throat... 
and I can't breathe without it hurting 

Sometimes,it's so hard,being so close to Him,yet so far away... 
never knowing when I will feel the sweet release, 
only He can offer me 

And sometimes,it's so easy,just knowing I'm His... 
Knowing He loves me for all that I am, 
and all that I long to give Him.

His playground

His hands caress me,controlling, possessive, 
His torture is sweet,and oh,so impressive! 

The pulses run through me,like shards of glass, 
His hardness against me,threatening my ass. 

His hands on my throat,restricting the flow, 
but between my hot thighs,the answer is NO! 

His breathing is ragged,He drinks in my desire, 
His body is rigid,my skin is on fire! 

"Not yet my slut...wait for my word", 
as I beg for release,my pleas go unheard. 

Deft fingers work magic,their target in sight, 
and I am abandoned,lost to the fight. 

my hips rock a rhythm,their dance is unknown, 
and soon is the climax,the reaching of home. 

i cry out His name,as He gives me the word, 
"Cum now my slut...make yourself heard". 

i convulse for Him wildly,i throw back my head, 
my back is arched upwards,so far from the bed. 

i feel myself floating,then crashing back down, 
He holds me so gently,He loves His playground. 

The flaming forest in autumn

The sweet weather of autumn makes our walk more languid 
The forest that surrounds us has multiple colors, rustles 
With many beings that inhabit it, the movement of branches 
In the wind and our steps on the carpet of dead leaves 
You tell me how your life is complicated and hard 
While you hold softly my hand and you smile at me 
Your sweet voice and your crystalline laugh 
Contrasts with your own incredibly sad story 
My heart is touched by discovering your life 
A nothing keeps me from taking you in my arms 
And from crying with you of all these misfortunes 
Yet nothing touches you and everything seems 
So natural in your misfortunes that I understand 
How it was helpful for you to build your shield 
  
And yet, near woodlot thicker and friendly, 
I can't refrain from taking you in my arms 
And kissing you, then to my surprise, 
It's now that you cry, not of sadness, 
But of joy, of happiness to be with me 
I dry your tears by kissing your cheeks, 
Causing then a trickle of a smile, 
A so light laugh like little tinkling bells 
And you ask me with a thin voice 
For hugging you stronger in my arms, 
Until I choke you a little more 
  
Our hugs extend into the silence of the forest, 
In the secret intimacy of the woodlot in which 
We have taken refuge inside and, then slowly, 
You kiss me stronger, your hand palpates my body 
To measure tension, to test my desire to love you 
Harder, your fingers run to rekindle my ardor and 
You become a little impatient to let without caress 
Your quivering silky skin, your secret jewels wet   
  
The walk then takes another turn and after arranging 
My jacket on the floor, our love breaks the silence 
Of the forest, the birds trying to cover our moans 
Of pleasure with their songs, as if they wish to help us 
To find our strong pleasure and to make it last.   
And this unity in desire, in love gives us 
The strength of our love, the power in our pleasure 
Which breaks out in us at the ultimate moment 
When springs the light of our orgasm 
  
That's when falls the first drops of a little rain 
As to refresh us and to commit us to hurry back 
In the privacy of our room to do again this dance 
Without the beauty and splendor of a forest in autumn...

The music of heavenly notes

The strains of music flits past melodious aroma of heavenly notes  ..breaking through ranks of the rhythmic chords transporting the joyous souls … swimming and surfing … breathless

I t was more like the dip in Ganga, immersed and cleansed in the sound that breathes into the finger tips that, coming alive by gentle strumming on the strings, caress the struts, eyes shut … it is transporting .. it is endearing … a smile gentle on the face and lips … she sits in reverence drenched in devotion, hears … the very movement of the grace of her upturned face ever so slowly … towards her Sun God the sari, soft, weightless, clinging to her bosom desperately hiding her naked soul … her lustrous and silken hair dripping of holiness and seeking  almost involuntarily … the beseeching eyes meet in between that refrain and ever so motionlessly she sits at her lord's feet, head and eyes raised for the blessing, not of shyness that embraces her, but one that, almost without expression mesmerize the distance between the prayer and the prayed for …. 

Each tug at the strings of wire played out for the feeling that now pours out … needs no word spoken .. just the combination of every trembling heart beat reverberating... thus transcending … into an unknown realm and arriving at destination....Moksha Nirvana..... that only those seekers can see or feel … 

…. and then from this golden silence … devoid of religious frenzy or crescendo … only sublime connect … to be embedded within the almighty … one that both understand .. consciously yet un self consciously … !!

Many an often time does prayers offered in pure heart during course of each day … should surely be engraved in the minds and souls, for want of recall if not record .. remaining within the depths of one's existence as most seekers do … 

With wings of  imagination the soul soars, it plays so vividly on the conscience drawn irresistibly for this cleansing purifying redemption .. every now and everywhere … 

Sublime music  finds many forms of outpouring … the mind develops and perhaps plays out with the souls never seeking avarice or attention … that moment of being one remains eternal, ethereal and finds abode in the superior soul its ultimate destination … share or play it out with a lesser mortal - a sacrilege for the devotee not even worth mentioning … this Ganges dip eternal promise... elevates the soul and breathes fresh life into the damaged … immortalizes but in a realm of sacred isolation where no trespassing occurs …

For the truth seekers ‘Understanding’ the very nature of the universe they wish to conquer and ‘apology’ for the removal of inane obstacles of bias and prejudice should make the path to the Lord more meaningful.....

Humans are indeed perceived differently … but the soul which belongs to the Lord has no unique identity....strip of all worldly  layers dissolves differences …displaying uniformity... 

I miss you with every fiber of my being

There are certain things I need to clarify to you my love
this poem is extremely sweet and touching
but my sweet love why this angst baby
I never left you I never went any where
Neither will I ever leave you until death do us apart
You may not believe that I do love you and miss you
I am so lost I do not know how to get to you
I just want to rush to you sweetheart
say to you I have had enough of this world
keep me in your heart ad never let me go
my love for you is the strongest
For I never give up on you my love
If some day you don't want to be with me
I will just be where I am but will never
go searching for new relationships
I can never love another again
And thanks for the following lines:

I miss you so much it hurts, my love 
I miss you with every fiber of my being 
I miss you like there is no tomorrow, my dove 
I miss you fervently, it's all my loving. 
I miss you with my entire heart 
I wish we were no longer apart.
My heart beats only for you, faster and faster 
My legs are shaking just thinking about you 
My eyes are watery, tears flowing larger and larger 
My whole being is trembling for you. 
My arms are craving to hold you once more 
My soul is withering away deep from I its core.

I miss you desperately, with everything I got 
I miss you darling, I miss you every single day 
I miss you sweetheart, my loving ache so hot 
I miss you my dear love, I miss you all the way. 
I miss you and I can take it no longer 
Come back to me and our love will be stronger.

PS: When I met you I did make kheer and brought it to give you. But the guards at the gate the organizers were so downright rude especially one sanjay he kept asking me what was inside the gift package not allowing me to carry anything inside that in that confusion my kheer was left in the car. I had made with milk basumati rice kesar badam pista kismish and it tasted heavenly. So don't keep saying that others got you hand made stuff you treasure! I did too and finally it was my driver who got to eat it! I too treasure hand made personalized stuff so spare me the sermon. But please think even those I bought was on my overseas trip with limited weight currency to carry and I thought of spending it all on you! Sometimes you need to appreciate me and include me in your kindness dear heart. 

Passionate waltz of true love

You’re a beautiful fairly tale world  to me 
In fact darling mine,
You’re  irrevocably heart wrenchingly mine.
Only your kiss could awaken this bud to blossom 
Paint the seven colors in the rainbow shine.
Only your never let go hug could make me 
Feel warm and safe in the lonely world.
Only your deep voice could soothe me 
Help me get out of my nightmares.
Only you 
That could make me feel …lead me on..

To this passionate waltz of True Love.

My heart's joy my only love...

Your happiness comes first before anything else,

I will do anything to put a smile on your face

And cheer you up whenever you need it

Ever since you came into my live

I have looked forward  to every morning

Because I know it is another day,

 that I can spend thinking of you

Between thinking of you when we are apart

and dreaming of you at night when we are together

Each day is so perfect because I have you.

I would rather be with you

than do anything else in this world.

You bring out the best in me

and I am only truly happy when I'm with you.

Every time I listen to your voice my heart just melts

Because of all the cute things you say

And the wonderful things you do.

You are the only one for me

And I don't want anyone else

You are the one that makes me who I am

And the one I want for the rest of my life

You are the one who understands me

and accepts me for who I am

I am not afraid to be myself around you

Because I know you won't judge me

Or put me down in any way

You make me realize how lucky I am to simply be alive

And have someone as special as you always by my side

The words "I love you" aren't strong enough anymore

And "I am in love with you" just doesn't cut it either

Our love is too strong for any words to describe

That's because love was never meant to be this true

and love was never meant to feel this good!

And I guess love was never meant to be

felt over the internet either eh? ha ha

Oh well shit happens And I am so happy it did:)

I just wish I could hold you in my arms

And show you personally how much I love you

But sadly I can't yet so this will have to do.

I love everything about you not one thing I hate

How can you not love the angel

That has given you the love that you always wanted?

You are the angel sent from heaven

And I thank you parent s for raising such an incredible son.

I am so happy you proposed to me some 11 months ago

That day was the best day and one I will never forget,

It was the day I became truly happy

and the day that I met the boy of my dreams

You are everything I ever wanted

and I am never going to let you go!

When I am old and I am grey(and possibly without any memory at all...),

I want to be able to look into your eyes,

And tell you that I still love you

My love will never fade, nor will it ever age,

I will be the same as today, for as long as I live.

I loved you yesterday I love you today,

I will love you tomorrow, and everyday of my life.

You mean the world to me my darling

I couldn't live without you

I am completely in love with you, and I will be forever!!!

You are the one for me and I hope I'm the one for you!!!